I have many fears that I am afraid of. Most fears, I can handle them and turn them into normal when I get used to it. However, some of them, I do not know how to handle up until now. I try to get used to them. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I try, I still cannot control them.
1. Fear of taking exams
I don’t know how many exams that I have taken since I started my first class at school up until now; although, I still afraid of taking exams. I try to prepare and be ready before the exams, but during the exam, I still nervous and forget everything I prepare and I don’t know where and what should I start doing the exams. I try to calm down, and keep confusing on exams. Moreover, I always encourage and I talk to myself that I can do it, I will pass this exam. I cannot stop the time, and I have to keep working on my test. Finally, I can finish all tests with or without confidences. Sometime I don’t know what I did during exam because I feel so confusing, and I feel like I don’t know anything about the exam. Only the time will tell I can or cannot control this feeling. I will be crazy if I have exam every day. Happily, I do not it.
2. Fear of doing something in a hurry
I don’t like anybody tell me to complete any jobs for short period of time. Fortunately, when I was in Cambodia, my boss never ordered me to do something in a hurry, but one in a while, he asked to do that and I can do half of the job; eventually, he accept what I have done because he knew that I tried my best and very hard to fulfilled the task. Sean always gives me a pop up writing essay in just 30 minutes, yet I don’t blame him because he wants me to be a good writer. I need more time than other people to do some jobs because I cannot do any things quickly as other people do. Maybe it is my culture or habit. I always do something very slow.
3. Fear of flying
I don’t like to fly to anywhere. I hate talking the fly. One hour on the plan like on month on the earth. I always keep thinking about this and that. Stupid things pop up in my mind every minute. I cannot stop myself from thinking. I try to take some sleep; on the other hand, I cannot sleep. Some people try to take some beer or wine to make them fall asleep. Anyway, I do not want to drink beer or wine to make me sleepy in the airplane. I usually look at the LCD screen to know where I am now, when I will arrive. When I had a trip to Malaysia, this was my first time that I took an airplane. I feel very frighten; nonetheless, I could handle it because it took only two hours. When I took an airplane to America, it was a very changeling for me. I had to fly from Phnom Penh to Seoul for six hours and From Seoul to Los Angeles for nine hours. It was a crazy time for me. If I can avoid talking a fly I will. When I graduate, I will go back to Cambodia and will not fly back to America.
4. Fear of snake
I hate and afraid of snake that is still alive, but I love to eat snake because the taste is very delicious. I am allergic to the snake. Whenever I see the snakes I will throw something to force them to go away from me. Some snake is not dangerous, no poison, and cannot kill me; however, I feel very bad about snake. I used to touch the snake. It made me so frightened. I don’t want to touch it. I don’t know how I can tell you about its skin. It is very smooth, red and shiny. It looks wet but it is not. Sometime I wonder why some people love snakes very much, raise them in their home, and treat them as pets.
5. Fear of death
Some people might not afraid of death, but I feel not good when I think about that. Whenever I think about it, I could do any things. I don’t know what I should do or what I need to do if someone told me I will die tomorrow. I sometime think about what will happen to me. It sounds like crazy when I think of death. Truly, I will die someday but why I need to afraid of death. I stop thinking about it when I try to convince myself that I have a lot of time and thing to do before I am death. I will be death but maybe I will die at age of 80 or something, I don’t need to care about that.
6. Fear of losing beloved persons.
Some people might have bad experiences of losing some value properties such as money, car, jewels, gems, diamond, gold, cell phone, or laptop and priceless properties such as key, pen, pencils, unused stuff, sun glasses or shoes. When losing something, I feel a little bit said; but a few days later, I will forget it. When losing a person I loved, it took me years to forget. When I was young, I always slept next to my grandfather and played with him. My grandfather passed away when I was 10 years old. At that time, I was very young, but I still had this feeling. I cried and felt very sad. I always cried when I think about my grandfather and I played together. It took me about three years to forget this fear. Losing family members or person I love is the thing that I fear the most. If I could stop the clock, I would. I want to keep the happy hour that I spend with my grandfather and I do not want to lost him and also other people who I love.
I read Karen and CyndyChen's blog.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
My Year of Resolution
New Year is just coming, but January is almost passed. This year must be a very busy for everybody. Some people have no job try to get a job. Some people who already have a job try to get another job or find a new job. Some students try to find part time jobs; unfortunately, International student cannot get a job. Don’t be mad, International student have a chance to work on campus. It is a good opportunity to work with other people and get some experience with American working environment. I have many plans and I hope I can do all the stuff that I have planned. I do not overload myself but I believe that I will fulfill jobs.
1. Spend more time with friends
Last year this time, I spent my time with friends and family in Cambodia. I had a very wonderful life over there, but now I spend the time alone every day. I have only friends in here. I hope in this New Year, I will have time to hang out with friends who I know. I will enjoy the movies, shopping, eating and drinking with all of them. It could help me forget this boring and lonely planet. I might have a lot of fun this year.
2. Spent more time with my blog
Everybody has one or more blogs at the moment. I have a few blogs, but I never have time to update those blogs. I want to spend more time update my blog for my proficient composition class and personal pleasure. For some reasons, some people think that writing is fun, but for me, it is not. Writing is the most boring job for me. I have never had this kind of feeling for other jobs. I prefer listening instead of talking and talking instead of writing. if some magical thing happened to me, I wanted to be a good writer and a person who loved writing.
3. Eat healthy food
I do not know much about food in America; however, as you can see many American adults are very fat. American becomes the country which has many obesity adult citizens in the world. Everybody is extremely busy with studying if they are students and working if they are the worker. Most parents are super busy with their jobs so they do not have time to cook for their children. So every day, they have fast as their breakfast, lunch or dinner. There are many fast food stores and it is easy to access them anyhow, fast food is not good for health. I want to gain more weights but not obesity. I try to avoid fast food, junk food and other unhealthy food. I try to spend time to cook lunch and dinner for myself.
4. Exercise
When I was in Cambodia, I play either table tennis or tennis every day. I arrived here for more than six months; I could go to play table tennis for three times and volleyball for four or five times. Being a student, the same as last year, this year is still very busy to me, anyhow, I rely that I have time to enjoy playing volleyball, table tennis, tennis or jogging. As I know, gym club in university is free student but not for extended education student. For me, as a student, health is every important. If I get sick I cannot go to school and study. If I cannot study I will not reach my goal and succeed in life.
5. Get enough TOEFL scores
TOEFL is another challenging job for me. Every times I took TOEFL test, I feel nervous no matter how well I prepared. I do not know what is wrong with me and why I always feel that. I think it is normal because not only me that have such a strange feeling. I know that some other people also have the same feeling like me. I should not worry about that. No matter what happen to me, I believe that this year I will get enough TOEFL score so that I can go to university and I no longer stay in ALP.
I read Leo and Cyndy's blog.
1. Spend more time with friends
Last year this time, I spent my time with friends and family in Cambodia. I had a very wonderful life over there, but now I spend the time alone every day. I have only friends in here. I hope in this New Year, I will have time to hang out with friends who I know. I will enjoy the movies, shopping, eating and drinking with all of them. It could help me forget this boring and lonely planet. I might have a lot of fun this year.
2. Spent more time with my blog
Everybody has one or more blogs at the moment. I have a few blogs, but I never have time to update those blogs. I want to spend more time update my blog for my proficient composition class and personal pleasure. For some reasons, some people think that writing is fun, but for me, it is not. Writing is the most boring job for me. I have never had this kind of feeling for other jobs. I prefer listening instead of talking and talking instead of writing. if some magical thing happened to me, I wanted to be a good writer and a person who loved writing.
3. Eat healthy food
I do not know much about food in America; however, as you can see many American adults are very fat. American becomes the country which has many obesity adult citizens in the world. Everybody is extremely busy with studying if they are students and working if they are the worker. Most parents are super busy with their jobs so they do not have time to cook for their children. So every day, they have fast as their breakfast, lunch or dinner. There are many fast food stores and it is easy to access them anyhow, fast food is not good for health. I want to gain more weights but not obesity. I try to avoid fast food, junk food and other unhealthy food. I try to spend time to cook lunch and dinner for myself.
4. Exercise
When I was in Cambodia, I play either table tennis or tennis every day. I arrived here for more than six months; I could go to play table tennis for three times and volleyball for four or five times. Being a student, the same as last year, this year is still very busy to me, anyhow, I rely that I have time to enjoy playing volleyball, table tennis, tennis or jogging. As I know, gym club in university is free student but not for extended education student. For me, as a student, health is every important. If I get sick I cannot go to school and study. If I cannot study I will not reach my goal and succeed in life.
5. Get enough TOEFL scores
TOEFL is another challenging job for me. Every times I took TOEFL test, I feel nervous no matter how well I prepared. I do not know what is wrong with me and why I always feel that. I think it is normal because not only me that have such a strange feeling. I know that some other people also have the same feeling like me. I should not worry about that. No matter what happen to me, I believe that this year I will get enough TOEFL score so that I can go to university and I no longer stay in ALP.
I read Leo and Cyndy's blog.
Me & Myself
Hi, my name is Hokseng Hun. Everyone can call me "Seng". It is short, simple and easy to call. I come from Cambodia. I am single. I have three brothers and one sister. I am middle born child. I am currently an ALP student. I have attended ALP program since summer 2010. I am not a geek; however, I really like computer and it is difficult for me to tell everybody how much I like it. I hate learning Languages; nevertheless, I have to do it. I am not only learning English, but I am also learning computer languages. I am a person who is easy to get along with, and friendly. I hope we can share our time, knowledge and experiences in order to improve our English language skill and ability through out semester. I do not like doing housework, washing clothes and cooking; however, I can cook almost all the Khmer foods.
Why I come to America?
I come to America for further education. I have short-term and long-term goal. My short-term goal is to get 550 TOEFL scores so that I can study at university. The long-term goal is to graduate a master of science in computer science from California State University, Fullerton as soon as possible so that I can go back to my home country.
What did I do before I come to America?
I graduated a bachelor degree in computer science in 2002. I had worked for one private company for one year, and I had a few part time jobs before I worked for a government institution. I worked there for more than six years. All my jobs were related to computer such as network design, running network cable, network configuration, network administration, telephone system, database design, and web site design.
What kinds of sports, movies, music do I like?
I love many sports, but only three of them that I love the most. They are Tennis, table tennis, and football. I like football but I don’t like to play. I like action, romantic, and comedy movies. I don’t like the movies that are so imaginary. I like slow music and romantic.
What do I like to read?
I like to read tech blogs, online news, and the books which are related to computer, and science. I do not like reading real books. I feel good and want to read more and more when I read electronic books on my computer.
What do I want to do in the future?
I want to be a software developer. I am not good at computer, but I believe that I can do it through learning and practicing all those stuff everyday.
Where do I want to live in the future?
I want to live in my home country. It is small but beautiful. Every day, I can see the real natural beauty of landscape everywhere and I enjoy eating the organic foods which are grown by local farmers with friends and family.
I read Cindy Lee, Gavin, and Sophia's blog.
Why I come to America?
I come to America for further education. I have short-term and long-term goal. My short-term goal is to get 550 TOEFL scores so that I can study at university. The long-term goal is to graduate a master of science in computer science from California State University, Fullerton as soon as possible so that I can go back to my home country.
What did I do before I come to America?
I graduated a bachelor degree in computer science in 2002. I had worked for one private company for one year, and I had a few part time jobs before I worked for a government institution. I worked there for more than six years. All my jobs were related to computer such as network design, running network cable, network configuration, network administration, telephone system, database design, and web site design.
What kinds of sports, movies, music do I like?
I love many sports, but only three of them that I love the most. They are Tennis, table tennis, and football. I like football but I don’t like to play. I like action, romantic, and comedy movies. I don’t like the movies that are so imaginary. I like slow music and romantic.
What do I like to read?
I like to read tech blogs, online news, and the books which are related to computer, and science. I do not like reading real books. I feel good and want to read more and more when I read electronic books on my computer.
What do I want to do in the future?
I want to be a software developer. I am not good at computer, but I believe that I can do it through learning and practicing all those stuff everyday.
Where do I want to live in the future?
I want to live in my home country. It is small but beautiful. Every day, I can see the real natural beauty of landscape everywhere and I enjoy eating the organic foods which are grown by local farmers with friends and family.
I read Cindy Lee, Gavin, and Sophia's blog.
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